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If you are anything like I was, the absolute Queen of excuses when it came to making any real progress, then you’ve come to the right place. Let me illuminate. 

During that life altering pandemic a few years back, my husband and I built a home gym in our basement. Certainly an expensive endeavor, but well worth the investment since he would’ve lost his sanity without his workout therapy. Take a guess on how many times I went down there? Go on, throw out a number. Ding ding, you win if you said zero! I avoided that room as if our HVAC system was circulating Covid-19 fumes into the air. Be damned if I got sick! Aside from the incredibly convenient location, you couldn’t throw me down those stairs to go break a sweat. “Lack of time and energy” were huge barriers, naturally. I was busy being a full-time working mom, maintaining our home, photographing and obsessing over our 2 dogs and leopard gecko, and of course, incessantly over-thinking on all of the things… It’s no wonder I couldn’t spare a minute for some desperately needed self-care… 

What else? Oh, the equipment was too bulky leaving me no room for yoga, choreography or YouTube workout videos. Plus it was either freezing or uncomfortably hot. When I went down there, I became overwhelmed and didn’t know where to start, so I just didn’t. The list of ridiculous excuses went on and my self-confidence plummeted. I began to sense that this wasn’t a basic lack of motivation or will-power. No. There was something much more sinister at play. At the end of the deepest root, I discovered that I was engaging in a toxic battle of self-sabotage. I had to name the voice of the saboteur in order to separate me from her. “Ursula” was very fitting as The Little Mermaid was my all-time favorite movie growing up.

I knew in order to get out of my own way I needed to move a muscle to change a thought. The word “exercise” was triggering, so I settled on “movement”. I began walking my dogs more regularly. I opened up to a therapist in hopes of cracking the code to my unhealthy habits and unproductive behavior. I read and read and read. I stepped into the sunshine and eventually became my own friend. 

So you see, on the surface, this could look like a story about a lazy girl who needed to stop the B.S. and step on a treadmill. Although, it wouldn’t have killed me to do so! This was the beginning of my journey home; discovering my internal truth and healing from that mental hijacker who controlled me for far too long. We are born with an inner knowing, and as far as our life’s blueprint goes, this is where we step into the light to align and anchor that design to our deepest truth. 

(P)erformance = (p)otential - (i)nterference 

Tim Gallwey: The Inner Game

Ask yourself...

~ How am I currently showing up? (P)

~ What would I like to be true 5 years from now for my life to feel meaningful? (p)

~ What is getting in my way of achieveing that? (i)

... then listen.